Mother of Destiny

I have loved deeply but not for Thee alone,

Have lived and struggled in this human guise,

Bitterness and tears my life has known

Pushed by unknown hands of entities

Into decisions rash and most unwise.

I have known passion as a roiling stream

And anger's piercing heat that blinded me,

The mute subjection to a dull regime

Of body's pain and labour's agony

The needle of the vital force on empty.

I have heard the voice of night and in its dark

Unfathomed bosom lost a while my way.

I listened to its message cruel and stark

From its attacks upon my bed I lay

Exhausted at the rising of the day.

I am ever reaching towards a hidden light

I know is there but cannot touch nor seize

For in this flesh-bound soul the demons fight

And I of halting will and heart's unease

Cannot overcome adversities.

Yet I have glimpsed the dawning of an age

Who live within a dead and dying past

Unwilling to dissolve its pent-up rage;

Through beings of a darker nature cast

It hopes a little longer still to last.

O Mother of Wisdom, Mother of Destiny,

Only you can fill the hollow in my breast

I call to Thee, hear my impassioned cry

To live for Thee, to realize we are blest

And in this woeful world in Thee find rest.